Fifty-one minutes into the new year and I’m still tapping into old habits
I need to be sleeping earlier
My window is wide open, letting the cool smoky new year air in
Everyone nearby is asleep
But in the city it’s loud
Taxi’s fill with wobbly feet
The rest trudge along looking for the next spot
Third time’s the charm
If you’re lucky you’re already there
Found the spot, found the one
I lie here in the absence of sound
It seems like the absence of life but I’m warm
And my heart still beats
For the first time in a while I feel like I’m fine with the way I feel
I’m sick of this new year, new me bullshit
Why lie?
My ability to be me is my responsibility
When and where is my choice, why let a number decide?
My ability to be well is in my control
It’s within my reach